NOt aGaiN...!

WARNING!
THERE WILL BE LOTS OF CURSING IN THIS POST...

I got up this morning when hearing azan subuh.....
Bangun2...cuci muka....rasa nak mandi lah...so mandilah...

Takde orang lagi kat toilet...aku pun mandi dengan tenang...
Masuk bilik, solat subuh...
Then start to read my notes and stuff...nak exam esok ni...
Baca....baca...baca...
Damn...! Ngantuk plak...! Baru pukul 7.45...

Bukak lappy lah...baik layan youtube dari tidur...
Bukak lah lappy...tengok youtube...lagu-lagu nasyid...
Then terdetik nak bukak video muhasabah cinta...
Aku pun layan lah....sekali.......
Macam penah ku dengar lagu ini....?

OoooOhhh...dia penah nyanyi and upload video kat FB rupanya...
Rasa nak stalk FB dia lah...lalalalala~
Stalker tak bertauliah...Lalalala~
Then, OOooh shit.....!
The name of the gf being posted...by him of course...
My heart hurt like HELL...!

Aku tau dia dah ada gf, tapi tak tahu siapa...
And this morning, I knew...
Damn to the power of 1000...!
Selalu lah kena benda2 camni bila nak exam...
Why today.....??!!
F****ing shit....!
Hilang interest aku nak study ni....
I lost my study appetite...

Bila dah takde study appetite, aku pun bukak lah blog nak mengadu nasib...
Blog...blog...blog...writing always make you feel better...
Well in my case, typing...
Hell with that...it has the same objective - making yourself feeling better...

Aku rasa, aku tak suka dia betul2 kot...sebab selalu berubah2 je feeling aku...
But I tend to like him again because I used to like him...he's like 1st love or something(gerrdiiix!)

Ehh...tiba2 dah tak rasa pape dah...sape kate cursing tak bagus???
Cursing kat blog je.....kt luar, aku sopan orangnya(maka, bertaburanlah muntah2 ijau)....

Ada seseorang yang menjadi vertebrate aku semasa melalui saat2 sukar ini...
Seseorang ini, datang tepat pd waktunya...
Seseorang ini, messagenya amat bermakna...
Seseorang ini, kehadirannya sekuat instinc aku menyatakan...
Seseorang ini, menjadi pemadam pd yg lainnya...

TQ for being there as for last nite and this early morning...
It is enough for me to know your existence...

Sorry for the cursing...get use to it...
I'm not that cOoL when it comes to emotions...
This is just me...